so Ive realized that this still is tough. that I miss the best friend more than the boyfriend, that I'm glad that the anxiousness of it all is over with. but I miss it a lot. It gets to a point where you fear going to bed, because of the stories and fantasies your mind will create.... it's all for the best. and no regrets..I'm really glad that you can put ljentries on private. cause everyone knows sometimes you just wanna write.