and i can't say that i don't miss it. and i can't say that i don't wish that i could change it. but i realized that even if i could change it. i probably wouldn't. it had to happen anyway, as .. depressing as that is. i think that's the problem with all of this, you miss it so much that you think that you can't live without it. then you realize that you can, but it's just bloody hard, so you resort to doing stupid things. it goes from, i need to live with you, to i can't live without you, to - i need to learn to live without you.
the ironic part of it all, is the fact that i sorta predicted it ending this way...
peace, love, and all the things that make you smile. <-hehehe gillie
well i had already written a shitload last night, but i guess it didnt format in or whatever because it says that i have no entries written... which is a croak of shit.
well it's the december break, and i'm not too fond of it. well to the extent that everyone's like "WOOH CHRISTMAS LET'S SPEND MONEY" even though i find myself the same... i try and branch away from the commercial shit, and i aim to make presents rather than spend the money ...its just so.. i duno pointless, you shouldnt need a gift to tell someone you care, it should be your attitude towards them that determines how much oyu care about them. though most men don't know this, and they think that they can act however they want and then just buy you a rose and hope that everythings going to be okay because they buy you a flower or whatever. sure i'm not saying that i don't enjoy a gift every once in a while but i figure it would be a greater gift to just respect someone rather than be a loser and then dish something out to even the score once again.
ehjn i'm out